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If I doped I would potentially stand to lose everything. [size=150]It's a long list. My reputation, my livelihood, my marriage, my family, my house.[/size] Everything I have achieved, my Olympic medals, my world titles, the CBE was given. I would have to take my children to the school gates in a small Lancashire village with everyone looking at me, knowing I had cheated, knowing I had, perhaps, won the Tour de France but then been caught.[/size]
All my friends in cycling are here, and my extended family. My wife [/size]organises races in Lancashire. I have my own sportif, with people coming and paying £40 each to ride. Cath's family have been in cycling for 50 years,[/size] and I would bring shame and embarrassment on them: my father-in-law works at British Cycling, and would never be able to show his face there again. It's not just about me: if I doped it would jeopardise Sky – who sponsor the entire sport in the UK – Dave Brailsford and all he has done, and Tim Kerrison, my trainer. I would not want to end up sitting in a room with all that hanging on me, thinking, "Sh!t, I don't want anyone to find out." That is not something I wish to live with.
The problem with the accusations is that they begin that whole process of undermining what I have achieved. That's why I get angry about them.
This is only sport we are talking about. Sport does not mean more to me than all those other things I have. Winning the Tour de France at any cost is not worth the risk. That boils down to why I race a bike. I do it because I love it, and I love doing my best and working hard. I don't do it for a power trip.
At the end of the day, I'm a shy bloke looking forward to taking my son rugby training after the Tour. If I felt I had to take drugs, I would rather stop tomorrow, go and ride club 10-mile time trials, ride to the cafe on Sundays, and work in Tesco stacking shelves.